I was originally using this space as a platform to lay it all bare. To put my side of my story out there. To vent. To rant and rave about the parts of my life that I deemed unfair. To point fingers at those who have wronged me. To let it all (and I do mean all) out. I felt voiceless for so long, and this space gave me the ability to say things that I had never said to anyone other than my journals before.
Once I had put it all out there though, I found it hard to come back here and read those things. I used to use writing to help me feel better. But once all the crap came out, rereading it just didn’t seem helpful. And the writer who once lived in me slowly turned away from writing altogether.
I often come back to this space and wonder what I can do with it. It is a part of me and I am unwilling to let it go. But, it needs to be different than what it once was. It needs to be a space for discovery and for good. Not just for me, but hopefully someone else can find my journey helpful and maybe they can get some insight into how to navigate their world.
So, I’ve decided to use this as a space to discuss my journey with Hashimoto. So, please join me as we take this walk together. This time, no finger pointing, I promise!